Remember that I love you
I hated myself so much and felt so much shame for the state of my own head until I stepped back
I stepped back.
I stepped back.
I stepped backed and crouched down on the floor - “no no no don’t touch me!!!”
A security guard grabs me
I am flung onto the bed
It’s okay!! Don’t worry!!!
The nurse called for help!
3 or 4 more assisting -
They must hold me down you see
By my limbs and my head - You see -
The nurse directs their grip -
Up my nose and into my throat…
….
I am silent.
I am silent.
… I can hear them.
But I..?
..I am silent.
“You have to breathe eventually!!”
I’m holding my breath and refusing to swallow.
(I don’t want a tube up my nose and in my stomach)
(I don’t want to be touched I am cold and I am exposed and they are hurting why are they hurting me)
(I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here. I need to die. But who would want to be here??)
…
…
Okay folks, it’s time to lock in your answers!!
WHO AM I?
WHERE AM I?
WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
Genuinely - I am asking you.
..What? did you forget?
…This isn’t a dream.
This is real life this is a game and I am your host; Mr Beast, WELCOME TO THE BEAST GAMES!!!!
Now, remember!!
WHO IS THE PERSON BEING HELD DOWN?
WHO IS THE PERSON BEING HELD DOWN???
Who is the person being held down?
…
…
I step back and I turn on the tv.
… (who is the person being held down)
I step back and I focus on something else.
…
Australia was colonised in the 1700s and now we lock up the kids they couldn’t kill -
BABE calm down.
Progress is slow. This is normal.
…I think someone is held down?
…
The TV -
In 2002 some human rights activists broke some asylum seekers out of indefinite detention in the desert in Australia.
I paint. I paint.
In the 90s it was legal to rape your wife - SMILE!!!!
I love my dog I love my cat and most of all; I love.
I love (the person being held down) -
…who was the person being held down????
Blueberries grow beautifully here.
… be grateful, don’t forget say thankyou.
In the 00’s report a raping abuser for stalking
Cop thought that bitch reporting it should know it’s illegal for teenagers to have face piercings.
… clutch your pearls who would keep us safe without the police???
I don’t know my neighbours, I’m a renter.
The right to housing simply does not apply!!
…smile and BE GRATEFUL
Focus on something else.
Was there a person being held down?
You need to breathe.
Focus on something else, nobody was held down.
The asylum seekers were depressed, anxious and suicidal. So the people broke them out to save their lives.
…don’t watch the news. Don’t read a book. Not a study, do NOT camp.
Must you scream?! We’ve all broken our backs before you aren’t anything special - signed Brickie of 30 years to his son the first time he falls off…something high.
BE GRATEFUL.
….
Who is the person being held down?
Did you guess?
A patient at a hospital near you receiving “life saving care” for Anorexia Nervosa.
.
Don’t worry.
This is real life. It isn’t a dream.
Stay still for FUCKS SAKE!! If she hits or spits on anyone CHARGE HER!
…You have to fuckin’ breathe eventually.
I stepped back.
My great great grandmother was institutionalised, lobotomised and survived.
My great grandmother join the military in the absence of her mother.
My grandmother was sent to Australia to marry a man she barely knew.
My mother left an abusive father but was never really believed.
…anyway.
I stepped back
Oh my heart
I stepped back
I fell -
I am so relieved I fell into my mothers.
The creeks babble
as the rivers run -
So too does the blood in my veins
I am honoured.
I can breathe.